My family is on a crazy roller coaster ride called life. It twists and turns leading us in various directions, yet, we always seem to find ourselves together and as happy as ever.
Monday, September 21, 2009
I have to admit-I'm jealous
I love my son and would very honestly NEVER change a thing about him but I cant help but experience bouts of jealousy on a regular basis. I see Connor every day and never bat an eye at his delays. They don't seem that significant to me when it's just us.
We had a huge weekend of birthday parties this past weekend and it was like a giant slap in the face. There were tons of children there and I was shocked at how much bigger, older and more independent they were compared to my son. Some where even born on the same day as him.
Connor had a blast as did we but I felt so sad when he wanted so bad to climb on the little play motorcycle and couldn't and then a 16 month old little boy had no problem. Connor doesn't know any different but I do. He gets so mad that he cant do something and I have to sit there and fight back tears.
I never say this out loud to anyone other then my family but-IT'S NOT FAIR.
Connor is making leaps and bounds of progress and I hope with all my soul that someday he will catch up and the struggle will be over.
I don't think of myself as a jealous person but, seeing these other children do things so naturally while my son struggles to do things they did 6 months ago aches me.
I wish there was some way to replace missing chromosomes and genes in humans.
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